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Oh crap it's been a while since I write an article..
damn..... can't sleep... can't stop my mind thinking right now..
it currently 1:30 AM exactlly as I was constructing this crap..



I usually have a so-called treatment on this
sleep deprivation thingy/must-stop-my-mind-from thinking....
so hear goes my bloggy thereaphy :)....

Remember when I wrote something..
that how sucky it was that I need to found a new place to crash..
i'm just simple asshole... I don't need white clean
room/apt for me to stay and breath.. all I care were the PEOPLE...
pretty simple right?..

my ideal scenario.. would be.. I'll be living with bunch
of workaholics that doesn't care with their housemates/roommates..
it's kinda a win-win situation for me..
'coz when they don't care at me..
giving my fair share of rent or misc expenses would
probablly excuse me from interacting with them..
nope!... i'm not misserable..
i'm not just a people-person... I don't talk to
people that I don't know.. or who won't be part of this
crapy life story...
and hey!.. I'll surely continue to loose weight..
hehe.. 'coz Im obviously a lousy cook...
canned foods are invented for a reason... :)
why waste mins/hrs in cooking..
it costs a lot.. waste a lot of time..
i'm just going to eat it for 15 mins..
and my mala-dereck ramsey body will start to slip
away from me... :(

what's this article all about?, you may ask..
don't know actually.. just had an idea about this topic..
this morning...
its just that I easily got annoyed (sorry for the term..)..
for people who keep on whining on how messed up their lifes are..
they got buried with debts, extended family are asking for more..
wherein they are only earning almost enough for their own family...

unfortunatelly we live in a world where narrow-minded people
do exists... and keep on re-generating their kind...

it sucks 'coz their rationale thinking rotates in:
"Our life sucks, we're uneducated and poor...
so you should give us money because you live in City/Overseas..
and we're related...."

i'm not saying you should be stone-cold and don't gve them any...
it's just that.. you should set your priorities..
if you're earning just enough to feed your family and
send someone to school, then that's it...

if you got any extra, then help...
if you're going to kill yourself thinking...
how to help THESE kind of people.. then you'll
probablly IS going to kill yourself..

saying..
"No, I dont have any..
I only got enough to last for another week..
so I can work and help my family"..
those statements were created/used for a reason...
hehe... I just actually realized how useful they were..
a couple of weeks ago :)

there's a known fact that:
"You can't always get what you want"...

we all want to help the needy...
yup, i mean all...
but we can't help them all...
hey! we got our own bunch of problems right??!!!...
luckily the thinking/intentions
of helping them and prayers will be enough..
that's what all we got than nothing....
the intention of helping is greater..
than helping but bitching abt it after...

that's the narrow-minded people part..
hmm... you didn't explain why you got annoyed
this morning...

*damn!! I love 3rd person writing :)

hehe... 1st time readers will find this weird..
but my avid readers are already used in this crappy way of writing :P

hmmm.. lets get back to the topic..
feeling a 'lil sleepy..
bloggy-theraphy is kicking in...

i hate people who whines about financial problems..
not hate-hate.. i'm just annoyed about it or hearing it..
I mean.. financial problems are money...
money is a material crap...
we can earn and borrow it from somebody...
God created me to earn this much and stay single (damn it!!)
so I would have enough to lend you....
oops!! don't get your hopes high :)
i don't lend to those I don't trust...
and I really don't trust a lot of people..
and I KNOW how to say NO :)


My point is??.......
People with financial problems..
usually those who earn just enough..
to feed their kids/siblings/parents...

I hate them 'coz they are missing the whole point..
that they are blessed to have a so-called family...
hmm.. I doubt that you get my point.. hmm.....

*I think hmmmm-ing twice is kinda nuissance :P

lets put it like this...

for example B1 & B2 are great buddies..
both get their pay..


B1 send 90% of them to his family...
for their monthly expenses.. kids tuition..
mom's daily medicine intake.. the usual combo..
that makes your salary slips away from you in
an instant....

While B2 in the otherhand... just spent
30% on new clothings, 30% on gadgets..
and keeps the 40% to maintain his drinking/women/alcohol..
the whole rockstar/bachelor lifestyle :)

so B1 & B2 are on theire way home..
B2 is driving.. unfortunatelly he got
too much of acohol in system from the party..
told him not to drink:
Heineken..
Vodka + RedBull...
Bacardi + Coke..
at the same night..

then smoke Indonesan ciggz as a desert...
so B2s vision got gaga on him...
they hit an innocent streetlight..
poor streetlight it's so your to die..
they just put it last week :P

so both of them were sent to emergency room...
hmmm.. to make whole story very dramatic.. :(
they're both hit badly..
ribs were crashed... bones.. poked the internal
organs.. internal bleeding is on it's way..
as Dr. House is saying: "You're dying!!"


both dead in minutes...
hehe.. kinda sleepy so I'm cutting the story short :P

so??...
hehe.. for the sake of discussion..
what do you think will happen??...


B1 will be happy 'coz he just sent the money.. but will be mad..
'coz he don't know where will they get the money
for next months expenses...


B2 will be happy 'coz he live the LIFE... but will be mad..
coz his car was crashed...

B1's family will be sad of course.. but every effort B1 did will not be wasted..
coz he inspired everyone... siblings graduated... help mom and pops..
now they're living THE life..

B2's family will be sad of course again...
the guilt feeling on how bad the parents they were..
they let their kid waste his money for nothing..
and died without anything..

*damn can't think anymore.. neck hurts.. need to sleep :(


hopefuly that crappy story established my point..
that.. every one of you who got a functional family..
communication still on... says i love you to mom/dad/kid/hubby/spouce
everyday.. would be greatful..
no matter how hard is it to earn money just to keep
them alive is more than enough to wash out those hardships..

sorry if I'm on family-mood :(
damn... it's been like 5-6 months
since I heard their voice..
pops b-day will be tom...
father/mother day had passed not a single word heard :(

just hoping that they should probablly think..
I'm out here..and they are ALL together...
wish they could just think out of nowhere..
while having a dinner..
"hmmmm.. something is missing... I just can't get my thoughts in it..
oh it's someone.. I think he's name start with R.. IS IT????"

You'll probablly saying.,,
hey!! YOU HATE YOUR PARENTS????

Just for the record..
I don't really hate them..
I'm actually gratefull for everything..
I wouldn't be here if they're not my folks..
Hope you understand this...
I really love them a lot...
Love them a lot that I have to distant myself
it's my way of preparing myself away from them..
'coz from the odds of the whole immigration thingy
that it will happen.. actually it already happened :P
because if I didn't do that..
I'll probablly crying everyday..
missing my parents... and wouldn't last
a month in here...

sorry if i can't explain everything..
my cerebral cortex aint working right now..
need to sleep.. have a school to maintain later :(