Mood Swings

What's up with changing you're mood/aura????...
Even I dunno know what's the reason...
There just some times that I don't felt like talking..
this will bring some dark clouds in your chest....
dark clouds -->yeah!I know it's cheesy, what gives it just came into my mind :D
after the cloud thingy next stop was the world of your own
you seem to prefer being alone

the weird thing is I'm only like this when
I'm on this particular batch of peers
but I'm totally defferent with my junior high friends
were we usually hang out every Saturday....

let's kinda list down groups i usually hang out with

JELA Group
One of the coolest group in this prooject...
Fun to be with them..
Everyone got a love story to tell....

I love every fun/wacky/"trips" we did...
this kinda hit me from my dull life...
learned to drink..
learned to smoke but quit in return...
learned to go to places i never been into..
where in fact they are just mins away from my school....

problem overdoze!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this probablly what's been causing me to just turn my internal mute ON
don't wanna sound mean... I know sharing your problems to the group is good..
in fact i appreciate it 'coz people only share their problems/ramblings to the people they trust.....
but talking abt it almost 24/7 makes me nuts...
ok here's an example...
conversation usually starts from lunch, it's pretty normal right?!..
next chapter of that conversation will be during coffee break in the lung center...
you'll be lucky if the final chapter would be in for dinner...
but if you're in a rat's ass badluck :(
all of you are in a bar...
people are having fun...drinking/dancing/singing
but someone in your group is crying....
telling the same old story..
blaming the same old guy...
blaming him on why she missed her chance....
did we hear that a gazzillion times?????!!!!!
just get over it and move on!!!!

not really sure abt. this..
but i get pretty annoyed whenever i stucked up in that situation..
maybe i'm used in keeping my rantings inside..
if i ever shout it out!!..
it would MOST probablly happen once and only in this group of people..
i'm not gonna repeat it to another bunch of peeps....
why.. will i do that??? for them just to be aware of what's happening in my own life..
common!!! here's zchen's creed:
"You're interested in my life? Come and ask me abt it.
If i trust you I'll tell.. if I don't then you got my smile as a reply"

MED Group
The Father/Swingers group :D
Actually I usually join this group when the problem overdoze struck me again..
On this group you can either be transform into a sporty person...
This group talks a lot about sports and i don't find them weird or anything
unual at all.
Teasing each other about having a mistress is quite a normal and it's a guy's conversation..
you can't remove it from there.
The problem with this group was the night life..
what do you expect on a bunch of "attached" guy?!?
it's either they went for a sporty good time or go straight home.

one thing i hate on this group was the persona they're trying to be...
where it kinda look like crappy!!!
someone is acting like narcissus, you won't miss a day without hearing how
good looking, swave, good on this and good on that...
common man!! stop it!!! what do you want from us??!!
here are us say "You're the MAN!!!"..
ok you've heard it.... then STOP!!!!!!

hey there's another one acting like Tarzan...
if he solve something/or did something more than you can do..
he'll hit his chest *poor chest*
and look at you... while he's eyes were saying "I'm the man and you're my bitch!!!"

Franse Group
the only group i got outside the boredom of "GREPING" :)
this people consists of my classmates in highschool
where we all still live in this freaking place!!!
being with them is like all hell break loose....
they are willing to crack their bones by jumping on cement floor...
just to get their face on the picture...
it's not exagerrating, it's real!!
they beat each other just to have a good spot and the right angle for the picture..
and if someone was left behind, she'll probablly puch them all..
where their faces will be right in front of the camera..
you can almost see their nose hairs :)

This is what i want..
enjoy every moment as if we got no tomorrow..
if we're gonna drink, the drinking won't stop unless someone will be knock off drunk..
our cravings for a good time is so simple
that we can just spend it in someone's house...
somebody will buy the drinks..
while the other one will go to Andoks

The only thing that i hate abt this one..
Is that we only get to see each other during the weekends.